Saturday, April 2, 2011

Oh Take Me Back to the Start...

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are

I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I've set you apart

Tell me your secrets
And ask me your questions
Oh, let's go back to the start

Running in circles
Coming up tails
Heads on the science apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard

Oh take me back to the start

I hate that things are like this. I hate that I have to sneak around to talk to certain people I used to talk to every day. I hate that people here see me as the complete opposite person of who I really am. I hate avoiding the places we used to go to all the time just in case I'd awkwardly run into you. I just want to go back to how it was. When we'd all hang out together without fighting. Without trying to drag someone down just for the fun of it. I still just don't understand how we got to this point. I would give anything to have those days back. I wish you'd accept my millions of apologies because I don't know what else to do. I'm literally dreading moving back to Orange County this summer. Because of you. I can't take this constant rush of anxiety that never leaves my body being here. I just feel out of place because of a misunderstanding you never took the time to understand. I drove by your house tonight. Your light was on and I wanted to shout up to it like the old days. But I can't. I don't know how to start over without you.

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